Good morning people :3
I had a nice sleep last night. Maybe it is because after I made up my mind on removing him on my Facebook and MSN account. We’re just friends but there are things that are hard to understand, especially when I cannot fathom the words. He became a good friend to me after I decided to chat with him. Well, it’s because before I got irritated at him for distracting me during my study hours. We became good friends after a long chat, then role-plays, and sharing our interests. He even told me to create an MSN account so that we can chat there. We stopped chatting @ Facebook and moved to MSN. I always had a nice time chatting with him. I knew his interests in life and the goals that he wanted to reach someday. I told him that we’ll go to Japan someday to reach our dreams. His personality have caught me, until one day I realized that I was falling for him slowly. When I’m down or  lonely, he was always there to comfort me. I realized that I’m in love with him. But no, hell no…destiny didn’t allowed us to share the same feelings. He loves me as a friend, yes…but as something deeper than that..no. It have hurt me everytime that I thought of that, but then I’ve learned the fact that I’ll remain as a friend to him. Then one day, things have changed. Everything. It’s like the world went upside-down. I got hurt by the things that he have said. It’s like he pierced my heart with needles continuously. He’s not the guy that I’ve used to talk to before. I stopped talking to him for 3 days. Then, last night, I decided to end things up. I logged in on my MSN account, chatted with him, and told him the things that I wanted to say.

“Well I need to go now. I might not be able to talk to you again. Too bad our dream on going to Japan someday won’t ever happen. Thanks for everything.”

After I told him that, I logged off, went to my FB and removed him. I did the same thing to my MSN. I hope that what I’ve said sank on his mind. If not, then okay. Removing him is enough. I deleted his picture on my phone and tried to sleep without thinking of him. I wanted to tell him so many things, but I don’t know how I’m going to tell him. I feel so dumb. I wanted to tell him how much I love him….but of course, he’ll only tell me that he love me too..but as a friend. I wanted to meet him someday…someday after I’m done erasing all our bonds. I’m hoping for his success someday. And to me, I wanna finish studying with the course BSHRM. I will move forward no matter what happens. He might be a loss, but I still have my best friend and true friends around. I will show him someday that I’m a very strong girl. I’m at ease right now…and I know time will heal me.

Bye bye Abhinav ^_^v
Let us forget each other, even the dreams that we’ve shared :)